-dreaming-

ah did you all watched "xuan hao jiu jie hun?" aka choose properly den get married, lol, hosted by michelle and quan yifeng. my colleagues and i were talkin bout how romantic the whole plan was.. it reali was, in my pt of view. it was touching and loving and i hope there'll be more happy couples in bliss :) the tears were tears of joy. it was heart-warming watching it as i imagine myself in quan yifeng's position, how wld i be feelin? i love surprises, but a surprise marriage is kinda scary :/ for marriage, i tink it'll be good to make plans & decisions togeda. afterall, thats wad a husband and wife shld b doin ya?

marriage is a commitment, a lifetime decision, a journey taken by 2 parties hu hav committed n promised themselves to go thru thick n thin togeda, to share both happiness and sorrow :)

i've never reali tell you verbally how important you were to me. i dunno if the things i did have ever showed you de love i have for you. but i wan you to noe, i cherish you and de love we both hav. it is still beating like de first day we officially became a couple :) and it always will :)

[hopefully one day wen you decide to read this blog again, you'll noe how my heart feels, how my heart bleeds whenever we have cold war, how my heart cries out loud for you, how my heart beats for your company, and how my heart misses you, my dearest]

i really really wish we'll be able to go for a short trip soon.. *dreaming*

-this week made me feel the importance of good health-

To JS: thanks for the concern. i dunno wad im suppose to do but i'm sorry for the answer i gave you. frens we will be forever. you'll find the right one soon and i'll be reali happy for you:)

-i miss my boy-

the hurt..

Why does it have to hurt inside?
Why do I have to cry each night?
I think I have to walk on by...
Cuz I'm starting to lose my sight...

What is it that changed your mind?
Who is it that keeps you blind?
Why did you change so fast?
Did you really have to leave me behind?

I start to think about all we had
And how it turned this way...
I guess I'll have to leave your side,
And turn my face away...

Although my soul will die...
Although my heart will cry...
I've got nothing else to do,
I'm hurt deep, deep inside

Tho I'll leave your side,
You'll be always on my mind...
My heart and soul will ache for you,
Every day and every night...

You're my never-ending love,
The love that keeps me alive...
You're the one I'll love forever,
Although it hurts very much inside...

the long weekend

Vesak Day was spent.. celebrating my boy's grandaunt birthday! :) the whole fam planned it to be a surprise, telling her tt its only a normal gathering. the early peeps wen as early as 10am! wah.

i left home noon time. made a trip down to Joo Chiat to get the famous Puteri Mas durian puff! recommended by makansutra! so happy wen i found the place last time! hehe. the durian is really yummy! *yum yum*

den headed to my boy's granny place where they had the 'gathering'. thanks for keepin me company Jo! hehe. we gambled like the whole afternoon and even at nite? lol. i lost money lar :( boohoo. it was fun tho..hehe.

dinner was yummy too! (i sound like some yao gui, lol) my boy miss out on all these good food, hee. it was a good gathering cum birthday celebration. his uncles + aunties are all very nice and i feel really happy :) a thought jus came to my mind.. wad if we arent fated to be wif each other and dun end up togeda in future? i'll really miss all his cousins+relatives.. *cries*

ard 8, i left for short while to Joyce's birthday at Cote Dazur :) Happy 21st birthday babe! thanks for accompanying again gal :) reali appreciate it lots. we wen mad taking photos again, hehe. Claire & Candice left early, so din manage to tk any pics wif dem :/





i like this pic! so sweet sweet rite! hehe.. *smiles*


returned back to my boy's granny place after tt and.. played mahjong! lol. cny didnt play so now muz play? lol. my boy's mum came after work and we stayed all the way till 2am? drove to the airport thereafter to pick my boy up. his flight - 3am *yawn* was pretty tired actually :p had late supper as his mum was hungry, b4 we headed home.

thanks for the gifts you bought dear :)

faint, he lost so much weight! *sayang* we woke up on Saturday jus for lunch, den wen back to dreamland! only woke up at 5pm -.-" *shiok*

my boy wanted to hav Crystal Jade for dinner. saw my mum's sms that she's received her present, hehe. ordered flowers + gift set for her for Mother's Day. had them delivered on Sat as Sun was unavailable. den got to noe that they're also heading to PS's Crystal Jade! *faint* so we had dinner togeda in the end, hehe:) wif my granny too :):)

my boy sent granny home while my parents continued patoh-ing :P

Sunday.. din do much except to watch Poseidon @ Suntec. nice! hehe. but the ending quite sad :/ bumped into my parents there too! lol..

At Suntec's Sky Garden:
i tink this pose is so cute! hehe..




@ Sky Garden last yr:


1 year later.. 14/5/06:


i hope there's endless years for us.. *deep in thoughts*

Happy 25th anniversary Mum & Dad!


thats the flowers+gift set i gave my mama, hehe :p

Wishing them loving always! =)

-wish you were right here supporting me-

the blog hopper

i was blog hopping.. Lynette's bloggie entry came as a shock to me. a very near-to-perfect couple decided to become frens. they appeared as a role model to me. a couple hu does hav quarrels but always solve it amicably and u noe the "live happily ever after" sweet sweet couple kinda thing. and wen i read her blog, i felt a lot of emotions myself, as well as for her. her words said so much bout her heart, said so much bout her feelings. and as i read it, i dunno to be happy for her :/ after all, she was de one hu made de decision. and no..they din had a huge fight or whatsoever.. apparently, she's going overseas :(

its been going 3 yrs since i knew her :) she was de one hu intro-ed me the Mediacorp job =) she was also the one hu taught me "dun find love, let love find u".. and.. funnily, we've not met at all! lol. i hope wadever route u choose, success n happiness will be wif u, Lynette :)

den i read Qiwen's blog, and saw photos of her bro - ya him. memories of the past came into me. and fear sets in. no one expected him to be such a person, or at least, i din expect him to do such things. i feel sad and hurt tinkin bout the nasty things he did, bout the sweet little talks he always sae, jus to cover up his lies and actions he did behind my back. i feel de phobia coming back to me.

i hate myself for not bein able to control how i feel. wen such phobia sets in, my boy doesnt like it. ok who in the right mind will like it.. but ah im aldy tryin not to let de past affect me. sigh :/

oh well, not all r/s will turn out bad hur? *self-console* on a happier note, my cousin's gettin married tmr! hehe, so happy for her. .her big big day wor! =) i hav so many cousins gettin married tis month and even nex yr! *smiles* on leave tmr, goin to be the bridesmaid, hehe, so long wkend for me! :) de other time while havin dinner @ Sakae, my boy and i were tokin bout "sabo-ing the bridegroom!". so i asked him, nex time if one of the challenge is to eat lotsa wasabi, den how? u will eat a not? guess wad that silly boy said?

"heh. i wun eat! cos i noe in the end u'll still marry me!" wad the.. -.-"

(my aunt jus msg me to ask wad kind of challenge is good for the bridegroom tmr. so i told her: "make him eat sth he hate!" die la, they are preparing wasabi salad for him now! omg, not my fault ok! hehe)

ever since he wen overseas, every call from him was so precious to me..

her: thanks for callin dear, great to hear ur voice :)
him: my love, its great to hear your voice too.. makes me miss u so much.. makes me reflect and know i wanna marry u.. oh baby, im dreamin of my baby in her wedding dress, with me waiting to unveil and kiss u! love u sugar..

(lol he's been day dreaming too much! lol.. i hope he doesnt miss me only wen we dun see each other for so long..)

my boy is out in the greens :/ haven heard fr him since Tues.. *sob* before he wen outfield, he choose not to bathe so he has time to call me, hehe.

him: baobei, call you before i leave..
her: orh, u free now ah?
him: no la. the rest bathing.. i nvr bathe to cor u lor.. hehe aint i good?
her: *smiles* really ah? hehe.
him: but 4 yrs later i wun cor u le leh..
her: huh.. how come..?
him: hehe cos we'll b married in 4 yrs time! you'll be living wif me le ma!
her: muahah...you ah.. so fast meh? u say one ah!
him: hehe i try lor..

see la, his mouth so sweet rite! lol. hopefully he wun be like the previous one.. sweet talk jus to cover his lies and actions :/

u mite not read tis, but i miss you baby. another 8 more days to go.. *cries* i told you i'll wait for you, and i really really mean it.

there's so many things that can mean so much more than i can tell,
baby, i remember the day i knew you and the day i fell for you.
if there was ever one thing in my life i was certain of,
it would be you - the man i truly love, i love you baby.